Monday, June 14, 2010 @ 1:46 AM
exams are the bane of my life (lives)
The dreaded exam period has finally reached us..
Now is the time to pull out the books and the allnighters in hopes of attaining a pass, just so we won't have to repeat the same boring subject next year!
Amidst the chaotic buzz of exams, I have my own worries to attend to...
A new life is about to unfold, with seven months left of freedom and youth, I'm nerve-wracked.
Am I ready to give up everything for this life I helped create ?
Am I able to provide for it ?
Are we able to be the best we can for it?
So many unanswered questions, and it seems like we're taking a big gamble on it.
I mean, our relationship (mine and KingRabbit's) has just become stable again, especially after the incident 2 months ago.
But with every cloud is a silver lining, and that is my family.
Their offer of endless and selfless support has touched me, and allowed me to understand the real meaning of a family... not a need but a want to be the best and provide the best and just be there for your children/niece/grandchild. And I thank god (or whoever it is that gave me such a loving family) for them. I just hope to be half of them... and will rest assured knowing that my child will be in good hands.
To whoever it is that lives up there, that watches over us, that guides us through the rough times... I know this is just a part of the bigger picture.
This is one the things/ events in life that will change the course of your life forever. Please help me through this... I need to know that my life will still have a greater purpose despite my child... I know I will be the centre of my child's world, but I still want to leave my own mark on the world.
Dear reader(s), I know my posts have been filled with worries and such lately, but given the events of this year, I think they are appropriate!
Besides, what makes for a good story other than drama or crime? ;) This might sound a bit ego-centric, but I honestly think that this year of my life could easily make a romcom !
Juno style perhaps?
Hmm, til next time..
x