Life never fails to amaze me.
I mean, the thought of us just... existing... with no actual purpose... just creeps me out but always leaves me wondering...
Is there or more accurately, was there someone out there that thought "Hey.. it might be fun to put a bunch of idiots on some dirt and water and see how they react!"

I mean, seriously... what is the 'meaning of life'? Why are we alive? Are we supposed to serve some "great purpose" in the end?
Don't take me wrong, I'm definitely not ungrateful for my life...
I mean I have what many don't... a home, a loving family, an even more loving boyfriend, some income (my mere 11.84 an hour BEFORE tax! ) and the best friends anyone could ask for... but somehow, I have to wonder, why me? Am I supposed to be greater? Do greater things? Eat greater food? Read greater books? With my privileged life (compared to many), do I serve a greater purpose in "Life" ? Or just in the lives of those around me?

Somehow, I desperately want to leave my mark on this world... something that just YELLS OUT "THIS IS KASS LEE'S WORK. SHE EXISTED." And I don't mean a tombstone or children.
People die and tombstones can be removed.. memories eventually fade away... and soon, my existence will cease to matter in this world.
I don't want that!
I refuse to lead a mediocre life... I don't want a 9-5 office job, working for some asshole who will never give me a payrise... but neither do I want a job in retail nor opening some restaurant (although i do love my job now, it's just not a career in my eyes). I don't want to be floating through my life... too lost in the busyness of MY life to even realise that there is just so much more.
I don't want my existence to become meaningless.
It's such a scary thought... that I'm just a pinprick in the fabric of life.... and along with countless of others, we form what I guess, is the "bigger picture".

In all this wondering and trains of thought... my HSC and uni offer comes to play.
The HSC is definitely not the be all, end all of this world. I know this, and the thought of just more out there waiting for me, is like warm milk before bed... comforting but temporary stress relief.
Don't worry, dear reader (if any!), I'll make it someday... I'll leave my handprint on this world and it will scream, loud enough for everyone to hear... "Kass Lee did not exist... she lived."

x

Labels: life

How do you know that a guy is "The One"?
Does he come with a halo and neon lights stuck across his forehead saying "The One" ?
Or does something in your head just click or does a lightbulb randomly turn on and suddenly, you are just reassured cos you know he's The One.
Haha well whatever it is, somehow I know that KingRabbit♥ is MY one...
I can see it, I can feel it.. it's in all the little things!
Just things like kisses on the cheek, on the forehead and on the lips, hugs, his declarations of love, our telephone calls, our inside jokes, the way he worries when I'm sick, the way he gets jealous when I meet other guys =P (he doesn't think he's jealous but I know it... call it, women's intuition ;)) the list is endless!
I also know it, when I think that the cutest image in the world, is him carrying a child (hopefully our child sometime in the future xD)
MrWiseGuy once told me, when I gushed to him about that image, that he envied us... HE envied US. The man who cannot commit... was jealous of our commitment to each other!
I think it was then, that it clicked... I'm truly and irrevocably in love... with my best friend.
And I'm fucking loving it :D

♥ Cause I'll pull down a cloud for you
I'll circle the stars and bring you and back
I'll walk through the sun for you
Cause there's somethin you do
That's got me walking on the moon ♥
                - Walking on the Moon, The Dream ft. Kanye West


x

PS I'm sorry to all those singletons reading this sickeningly romantic and loveydovey post.... but hey, i'm a girl in love.. what else do you expect ^__^





I recently realised that my posts lack a heading..
The heading of my last post is meant to say is "Christmas is here!"
and then it continues onto the actual post.. haha

Anyhoo... the title of this post is actually "Life is more fun with risks"
.. and I think it's true! Obviously not to the extent where you're gambling away life.. maybe I'm not making sense at the moment but do read me out.

As a youngun.. I always imagined (and i still do) that office life would be the most boring job in the world! Yet coincidentally, it is also most common job... you know the typical 9-5 office clerk... working OT sometimes.. etc.
Although some may disagree, I think these jobs are the most "safest" as in low risk therefore low satisfaction. Satisfaction may be in regards to success, moneys earned, amount of work achieved etc.
But what I'm trying to get to, is that working in an office job (for me at least) is too mediocre and too boring...
To achieve something out of this short time that we spend on earth, we may as well use every minute wisely.
Why spend it working away at a job you hate/ get bored of?
Why not take a risk, take an opportunity or a chance and plunge into the unknown... such as the field of medicine?

Hmms.. the wonders of life!

x


Haha, well according to my iphone app... Amateur Surgeon it is.
It's such an awesome and addictive game.. but I'm stuck on Santa.. the last level :(
Snaps to Osamaa (and her iphone) for getting me addicted ;)

Anyway, the days are blurring... it's already the 10th!
Just 10 more days until its my bunniversary with KingRabbit
and 10 more days until the main round university offers are released via UAC.
Oh gosh... my stomach is turning and doing flips just at that mere thought >__<

Not many events have taken place between this post and the post...
Mr eX's birthday bbq was okay.. but the karaoke after was AMAZING.
I hadn't been to k FOREVER before that..
Ahh... good times :)

The grandparents are officially over from Indo. Everyone is being extra nice and extra polite and extra generous.... sometimes I think to myself that it's all just a show.. to prove who has the best hospitality.. or it could be that they just want to show them a good time.
I don't know. Oh well.

Other news include me finding a new job.. yes... I'll be workin with Sun
Haha the interview was strange... the interviewer was younger than me.. it was a little hard to take her seriously but she was pretty mature so it was all good :)
But I have to quit my job soon... well tomorrow.
Despite how much I complain and dislike some of the people that work there, I'm going to miss a lot of them.. I mean I've worked there for 1.5 years, i'd have to be pretty socially inept not to make any friends.
Haha.
Saying goodbye is never a fun thing to do... I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

Anyway I'm exhausted...

Take care and until next post remember cough syrup is not a substitute for alcohol

x


Mood: Sick Ear candy: My grandma talking on the phone.

Yes, I have no life. All I do is blog my life away...
Not true. (I think.)
Well KingRabbit is probably asleep at home and I'm waiting for Sun and Happyfeet to giddy up so we can go attend Mr eX's birthday bbq.. oh the trek!
But I don't mind long journeys as much.. I do have to travel 1.5 hrs to get to work afterall... those train rides have honed my patience. :D
I lie. Haha

Anyway, after finally, FINALLY changing the theme of this blog (last night), I'm actually excited to use it now =D
It took me a good 4 hours to figure out everything, but I think I got the gist of it.

As you may have noticed, dear reader/lover/friend (whichever category you may fall under), I have changed all names to keep anonymity =D For friends and my lover, it won't be hard to distinguish who is who, but for others (which i doubt there are very many), you'll have to meet me before you are privy to such information ^____^

Anyway, it's time for me to take my leave and I shall back for more probably tonight or tomorrow.
Til then, stay away from uncooked chicken, overcooked beef and sick toddlers or you may end up looking like this:




Just Kidding!! ^^

x




Life after the HSC is definitely not all it seems...
I'm so bored that I don't know what to do with myself!
Looking back now, I know that I definitely could've tried a lot harder and gotten a better mark..
Oh well. The past is the past right?

2010.
Time sure flies when you're having fun!
I even forgot about the existence of this blog.. (i created another one in Nov 2009... but i deleted it... it felt too much like cheating on THIS blog.)
Looking back on past blogs, I can definitely see that i've grown up.

I was so.. emo!
But I guess that was expected right? Haha.
Past loves and pain are gently nudged aside in place of new ones..
MyKINGRABBIT♥
my one and only. :)
My friend-turned-bestfriend-turned-lover.
Sometimes I think I take him for granted.. his love for me and willingness to spoil me makes it easy for me to make unreasonable demands (stay the night chan.. for the fifth night in a row!) but that's one of the reasons why I love him xD♥



But love and all aside, I honestly feel like a horrible granddaughter.
In light of recent events, I realised that sometimes not having the security and comfort of a home or even a person that you can hug, kiss or belong to, can be quite ... scary.
She means the world to me, and realising that she feels like she is alone in this world tears me apart.. especially when I know I am part of the reason why she feels this way.

The world of the adults is so scary and foreign to me... it's a world where one can feel as if they have no place in a family they helped create. A world where having face is important, regardless of who you're trying to impress.. be it your own brother, your daughter's inlaws, your cousins or even your grandchildren.

For the past couple of hours I've been wracking my brain for solutions.. so far a frustrating result of 0 solutions have been thought up.
And the guilt isn't helping either.
Only thing i could think of was to bake her a banana cake (it's her fave). Teehee.

ANYWAY to quickly finish here are my New Years Resolution(s):
1. Be a better granddaughter/ daughter
2. Study my ass off to get into med
3. Be a better gf (stop getting pissed over stupid things ! ahaha)

In any case, it's still not too late to start being a better granddaughter or a better girlfriend or a better sister or a better friend.
So 2010.. look out!
Here i come ~

x

Labels: family, HSC, love

Life never fails to amaze me.
I mean, the thought of us just... existing... with no actual purpose... just creeps me out but always leaves me wondering...
Is there or more accurately, was there someone out there that thought "Hey.. it might be fun to put a bunch of idiots on some dirt and water and see how they react!"

I mean, seriously... what is the 'meaning of life'? Why are we alive? Are we supposed to serve some "great purpose" in the end?
Don't take me wrong, I'm definitely not ungrateful for my life...
I mean I have what many don't... a home, a loving family, an even more loving boyfriend, some income (my mere 11.84 an hour BEFORE tax! ) and the best friends anyone could ask for... but somehow, I have to wonder, why me? Am I supposed to be greater? Do greater things? Eat greater food? Read greater books? With my privileged life (compared to many), do I serve a greater purpose in "Life" ? Or just in the lives of those around me?

Somehow, I desperately want to leave my mark on this world... something that just YELLS OUT "THIS IS KASS LEE'S WORK. SHE EXISTED." And I don't mean a tombstone or children.
People die and tombstones can be removed.. memories eventually fade away... and soon, my existence will cease to matter in this world.
I don't want that!
I refuse to lead a mediocre life... I don't want a 9-5 office job, working for some asshole who will never give me a payrise... but neither do I want a job in retail nor opening some restaurant (although i do love my job now, it's just not a career in my eyes). I don't want to be floating through my life... too lost in the busyness of MY life to even realise that there is just so much more.
I don't want my existence to become meaningless.
It's such a scary thought... that I'm just a pinprick in the fabric of life.... and along with countless of others, we form what I guess, is the "bigger picture".

In all this wondering and trains of thought... my HSC and uni offer comes to play.
The HSC is definitely not the be all, end all of this world. I know this, and the thought of just more out there waiting for me, is like warm milk before bed... comforting but temporary stress relief.
Don't worry, dear reader (if any!), I'll make it someday... I'll leave my handprint on this world and it will scream, loud enough for everyone to hear... "Kass Lee did not exist... she lived."

x

Labels: life

How do you know that a guy is "The One"?
Does he come with a halo and neon lights stuck across his forehead saying "The One" ?
Or does something in your head just click or does a lightbulb randomly turn on and suddenly, you are just reassured cos you know he's The One.
Haha well whatever it is, somehow I know that KingRabbit♥ is MY one...
I can see it, I can feel it.. it's in all the little things!
Just things like kisses on the cheek, on the forehead and on the lips, hugs, his declarations of love, our telephone calls, our inside jokes, the way he worries when I'm sick, the way he gets jealous when I meet other guys =P (he doesn't think he's jealous but I know it... call it, women's intuition ;)) the list is endless!
I also know it, when I think that the cutest image in the world, is him carrying a child (hopefully our child sometime in the future xD)
MrWiseGuy once told me, when I gushed to him about that image, that he envied us... HE envied US. The man who cannot commit... was jealous of our commitment to each other!
I think it was then, that it clicked... I'm truly and irrevocably in love... with my best friend.
And I'm fucking loving it :D

♥ Cause I'll pull down a cloud for you
I'll circle the stars and bring you and back
I'll walk through the sun for you
Cause there's somethin you do
That's got me walking on the moon ♥
                - Walking on the Moon, The Dream ft. Kanye West


x

PS I'm sorry to all those singletons reading this sickeningly romantic and loveydovey post.... but hey, i'm a girl in love.. what else do you expect ^__^





I recently realised that my posts lack a heading..
The heading of my last post is meant to say is "Christmas is here!"
and then it continues onto the actual post.. haha

Anyhoo... the title of this post is actually "Life is more fun with risks"
.. and I think it's true! Obviously not to the extent where you're gambling away life.. maybe I'm not making sense at the moment but do read me out.

As a youngun.. I always imagined (and i still do) that office life would be the most boring job in the world! Yet coincidentally, it is also most common job... you know the typical 9-5 office clerk... working OT sometimes.. etc.
Although some may disagree, I think these jobs are the most "safest" as in low risk therefore low satisfaction. Satisfaction may be in regards to success, moneys earned, amount of work achieved etc.
But what I'm trying to get to, is that working in an office job (for me at least) is too mediocre and too boring...
To achieve something out of this short time that we spend on earth, we may as well use every minute wisely.
Why spend it working away at a job you hate/ get bored of?
Why not take a risk, take an opportunity or a chance and plunge into the unknown... such as the field of medicine?

Hmms.. the wonders of life!

x


Haha, well according to my iphone app... Amateur Surgeon it is.
It's such an awesome and addictive game.. but I'm stuck on Santa.. the last level :(
Snaps to Osamaa (and her iphone) for getting me addicted ;)

Anyway, the days are blurring... it's already the 10th!
Just 10 more days until its my bunniversary with KingRabbit
and 10 more days until the main round university offers are released via UAC.
Oh gosh... my stomach is turning and doing flips just at that mere thought >__<

Not many events have taken place between this post and the post...
Mr eX's birthday bbq was okay.. but the karaoke after was AMAZING.
I hadn't been to k FOREVER before that..
Ahh... good times :)

The grandparents are officially over from Indo. Everyone is being extra nice and extra polite and extra generous.... sometimes I think to myself that it's all just a show.. to prove who has the best hospitality.. or it could be that they just want to show them a good time.
I don't know. Oh well.

Other news include me finding a new job.. yes... I'll be workin with Sun
Haha the interview was strange... the interviewer was younger than me.. it was a little hard to take her seriously but she was pretty mature so it was all good :)
But I have to quit my job soon... well tomorrow.
Despite how much I complain and dislike some of the people that work there, I'm going to miss a lot of them.. I mean I've worked there for 1.5 years, i'd have to be pretty socially inept not to make any friends.
Haha.
Saying goodbye is never a fun thing to do... I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

Anyway I'm exhausted...

Take care and until next post remember cough syrup is not a substitute for alcohol

x


Mood: Sick Ear candy: My grandma talking on the phone.

Yes, I have no life. All I do is blog my life away...
Not true. (I think.)
Well KingRabbit is probably asleep at home and I'm waiting for Sun and Happyfeet to giddy up so we can go attend Mr eX's birthday bbq.. oh the trek!
But I don't mind long journeys as much.. I do have to travel 1.5 hrs to get to work afterall... those train rides have honed my patience. :D
I lie. Haha

Anyway, after finally, FINALLY changing the theme of this blog (last night), I'm actually excited to use it now =D
It took me a good 4 hours to figure out everything, but I think I got the gist of it.

As you may have noticed, dear reader/lover/friend (whichever category you may fall under), I have changed all names to keep anonymity =D For friends and my lover, it won't be hard to distinguish who is who, but for others (which i doubt there are very many), you'll have to meet me before you are privy to such information ^____^

Anyway, it's time for me to take my leave and I shall back for more probably tonight or tomorrow.
Til then, stay away from uncooked chicken, overcooked beef and sick toddlers or you may end up looking like this:




Just Kidding!! ^^

x




Life after the HSC is definitely not all it seems...
I'm so bored that I don't know what to do with myself!
Looking back now, I know that I definitely could've tried a lot harder and gotten a better mark..
Oh well. The past is the past right?

2010.
Time sure flies when you're having fun!
I even forgot about the existence of this blog.. (i created another one in Nov 2009... but i deleted it... it felt too much like cheating on THIS blog.)
Looking back on past blogs, I can definitely see that i've grown up.

I was so.. emo!
But I guess that was expected right? Haha.
Past loves and pain are gently nudged aside in place of new ones..
MyKINGRABBIT♥
my one and only. :)
My friend-turned-bestfriend-turned-lover.
Sometimes I think I take him for granted.. his love for me and willingness to spoil me makes it easy for me to make unreasonable demands (stay the night chan.. for the fifth night in a row!) but that's one of the reasons why I love him xD♥



But love and all aside, I honestly feel like a horrible granddaughter.
In light of recent events, I realised that sometimes not having the security and comfort of a home or even a person that you can hug, kiss or belong to, can be quite ... scary.
She means the world to me, and realising that she feels like she is alone in this world tears me apart.. especially when I know I am part of the reason why she feels this way.

The world of the adults is so scary and foreign to me... it's a world where one can feel as if they have no place in a family they helped create. A world where having face is important, regardless of who you're trying to impress.. be it your own brother, your daughter's inlaws, your cousins or even your grandchildren.

For the past couple of hours I've been wracking my brain for solutions.. so far a frustrating result of 0 solutions have been thought up.
And the guilt isn't helping either.
Only thing i could think of was to bake her a banana cake (it's her fave). Teehee.

ANYWAY to quickly finish here are my New Years Resolution(s):
1. Be a better granddaughter/ daughter
2. Study my ass off to get into med
3. Be a better gf (stop getting pissed over stupid things ! ahaha)

In any case, it's still not too late to start being a better granddaughter or a better girlfriend or a better sister or a better friend.
So 2010.. look out!
Here i come ~

x

Labels: family, HSC, love

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