Tuesday, September 21, 2010 @ 9:37 PM
going cr@zy.
Monday, September 13, 2010 @ 7:33 PM
I wonder..
There are a lot of things that I wonder about...
1. Why crappy things have happened to me all year
2. Whether I have done such terrible deeds to warrant this treatment
3. Why dad isn't a good husband
4. How Carly is
5. What life with Carly would be like
6. Whether I can even be in another relationship
7. Whether I'm going to end up a lonely old spinster
8. Why I can't study
9. Whether or not I should go to the GC
10 Whether I can trust anyone anymore
11. What he is doing now
12 Whether he misses me or not
At this point in my life, surely there is more that just the past?
Saturday, September 11, 2010 @ 9:05 PM
my heart is broken
Honestly, I don't know why it hurts this much.
I guess it's the finality of it all.
And I guess I should've seen it coming, with me being so serious and your first gf and all.
We're still young.. but not everyone wants to feel that 'thrill'...
To be honest it's not just that, it's the fact that you're doing this despite everything and knowing that you're not even going to try and keep us together.
My heart is aching so much
All in all, I hope this is what you really want.
