Saturday, October 23, 2010 @ 10:04 PM
and the whole world just freezes over.
Right about now, I'm wishing for three things:
1. STEREOSONIC.
2. For a new liver - to drink my life away at stereo.. cos I'm pretty sure that my current (and only) liver is dying from all the alcohol I consume whilst waiting for Sun's CC guy to make a move.
3. For my friendships to last forever.
"The most universal human experience in the world is feeling alone." - JD (SCRUBS)
And I agree. It is also for some (like me and Sun) the most scariest feeling in the world.
To find that no-one is there to share your stories, laughter and tears... although I firmly believe that there is no good reason for suicide; I can understand how long periods of loneliness could lead to it.. So I wish for good friends to stay good friends, best friends stay best and for new friendships to come and last me my lifetime.. that way no one I know should ever feel lonely.
Sometimes though, I can't help but wonder if I'll die a lonely spinster...
Maybe it's karma for hurting people now?
I don't know.
All I know is that friendships will always last longer than relationships... perhaps this is why they say you should never date your best friend.. if you break up you lose both your best friend and your partner. Doubles the loss, double the pain?
Haha.
Dear reader/s (ha!), you can probably guess what a mess I am at the moment...
Inundated with uni work but still blogging; working during uni; life is so... completely crazy.
Honestly, I don't remember a time when things were so complicated..
I just want to go to sleep and not wake for 10 years..because you know that something's wrong when doing the right thing feels wrong and leaves you with that sinking feeling of guilt and the knowledge that things will never be the same again.
And that makes me kinda sad.
x
